June 30th, 2005

I am watching a movie.
...my awareness enters the movie...
An elderly spy couple are sitting on the beach. It is midday at the tropical beach. Burt Lancaster played the gentleman spy. The couple are enjoying some drinks, when they sense something. They then hide in the sand. A group of Desperadoes, straight from a Old West movie, are approaching on horseback. They want to kill the spies. The Desperadoes ride up to the beech but can not find the couple. They sit and look. Nothing. Then the elderly gentleman leaps from his sandy hiding spot. A quick shot from his rifle and one desperado is dead. He shouts at the others to surrender. They do.
"My wife and I are traveling the Grand Pass. Any one of you is welcome to join us."
Only one of the desperadoes agrees to join the couple. He gets off his horse. He discards his knife and two pistols. Free of his weapons he needs to cross a chasm in the sand. The couple are on the other side of the divide.
"I'll be back," he says to his two horses.
The desperado drops to a ledge in the chasm and crosses to the other side. He joins the spy couple.
...my awareness leaves the movie...
...the scene shifts from the theater to my parent's backyard...
I am walking around the edge of my parent's property. There are no longer fencing marking the edges. Instead towering pine trees border the edges. I am eating my breakfast as I walk. A breakfast of popcorn. Once finished eating, I notice I am only partially dressed.
"It is time fro me to get ready," I think.
I turn and walk along the front of the property to get back home. As I near the mailbox I see a giant envelope in the crab apple tree across the gravel road. It is the size of a door. I check the mailbox for other mail. There were four mailboxes. Two on the ground and two up on a post. Odd. There was no mail in any of the mailboxes. Only the giant envelope across the road. My daughter approaches me from the house.
...My daughter is Zoe Saldana...
She is mad at me.
"Why did you tell her that," she asks.
I told one of her friends who Zoe is dating right now. Zoe and her friend are attracted to the same boy but he likes Zoe.
"Because I had to send her away," I say.
"Why? She was your friend too."
"Yes, but I found her attractive. I can not have that temptation around me."

June 14th, 2005

I go into work at Farm and Fleet early in the morning. A group of people are standing next to stacks of music CDs. The stacks of CDs arranged in an orderly fashion. I ask a teen girl what is going on.
"I don't know," she says.
I start to look at the CDs in the stacks when I find an album by Teegan and Sara.
"Cool."
Then I look over the stack and see Teegan and Sara are in the crowd of people. So is all the Lollapalooza bands. I really want to say hello to them, but I am afraid.
"Why would they want to talk to me. They are professional musicians and I am merely a Mini-comic Artist."
I turn and wander around Farm and Fleet. The more I wander, the more hyperactive I become. Soon I am bouncing around and laughing like a maniac. I keep yelling for my skateboard. Between screams I notice a regular customer at the Front Desk. He is a middle aged Mexican Immigrant. He wants to leave with his oil purchase but no one trusts him. They are doing everything in their power to make him stay.
"I hate their bigotry," I think.
A customer approaches me.
"How many 3/4 drive ratchets does the computer say the store has," he asks me.
"Why," I ask.
"The 1/2 and 3/4 ratchets are mixed up on the shelf. I need 14 for a friend and want to know how many to order."
I go to check to computer and pass by the ratchets. I notice that the 1/2 drive and 3/4 drive ratchets are switched on the shelf. Once at the front desk, I look up the inventory in the computer. It says we have 11 3/4 ratchets in stock.
"Damn, he's right. he will need to order some."
I make a sarcastic comment about one of the Managers being a long distance runner to Anne Blanchette. She laughs then tells me she spends more time at the Front Desk than in her own department. How sad I think. I look over and see the stacks of CDs.
"No. I will not be afraid anymore! I will go and talk to Teegan and Sara. I will even ask them their address so I can send then a mini-comic."
I walk to where they were before, but they are gone. The show has started.
"Darn."
I leave the store to walk to the show. The concert is being held in the back of Momence Junior High. I am refused entrance because I do not have a ticket.
"Double darn."
I need to use the bathroom, but Geoff Trudeau's bathroom is the only one left. I reluctantly use it. It is very creepy. Dimly lit, cave-like, and filled with boxes of old clothes. I piss as quickly as I can then leave. Exiting the bathroom I spy a television. It is playing footage of the Pixies warming up for their performance. The footage was all in black and white. A teen male comes up to watch the footage with me.
He asks me," Is your chance over."
"No."
Steve Buscemi comes onto the stage. Apparently he has become a member of the Pixies. Cool. Once their instruments are tuned, they grab bottles of condiments from a nearby table. Each signs his or her name on the wall with the condiments. I leave the house confused by the Pixies signing their names in mustard and ketchup. To my surprise Teegan and Sara are outside also. They are dressed in chicken suits and chasing a shopping cart. The shopping cart was stuck on a run-away lawnmower. I run after them.
"Teegan and Sara, can I send you one of my mini-comic?"
"Sure."
"What's your address?"
A car horn prevents them from answering. Their mother has arrived and demands they leave now. I stand in the street watching them drive off. A freckly redhead teen approaches me.
"Did you get their address," she asks.
"No."
"I am sorry. I manipulated events just so you could meet them and get their contact info."
I am touched she would do all that for me. I hug her in thanks.

June 31st, 2005: Dream 2

I am traveling across a giant calendar.
...It is also a gameboard for a boardgame...
Trees cover the landscape. I step on the center square.
...The center square is the home to the god Indus...
I land in my parent's backyard. Indus approaches.
...Indus takes the form of Suzanne, only taller and thinner...
Suzanne needs to take a shower. We enter the nearby Antique House.
...The Antique House was located in my parent's backyard, between my parent's house and the back arena...
Suzanne showers with the bathroom door open. I sit on the couch watching television. I strain my neck to see past the television into the shower. I would really like to see Suzanne naked. The shower turns off and I grab a pink towel. It has been used, but is still clean. I hand it to Suzanne through the shower door. She dries off and joins me. After a moment of awkward conversation we kiss. I run my hands across her body. My mind races with arousal and joy. My cock is so hard it hurts. I press my body into Suzanne's hoping she will feel my erection. She does and smiles. Then the real Suzanne enters the house. Indus is gone. I kiss the real Suzanne and think how it does not compare to kissing a god.
...I need to travel to the Land of the 99 demons...
I start to travel down an immense stone staircase that leads underground. The stairs would alternate between descending and scending. If I travel far enough I will enter the Demon realm and then the Land of the the 99 Demons.

June 31st, 2005: Dream 1

I am in the lower levels of the Museum. A large party is being thrown in my honor. I have been elected president of the Museum. Everyone is celebrating. I step up to the podium to a round of applause.
"Thank you everyone. It is my honor to be your President. And if you did not vote for me, tough! I am here now and I am not going away."
I step down from the stage and leave the celebration. I want to talk to the Historical Society's President. I find him and bring up two improvement ideas I had for the museum. One, Put the mummies on display while simultaneously putting the Roman statues into protective display cases. Second, increase his budget. He has no idea who I am.
"He does not know I am president," I think. "Darn, I was hoping to do this without having to brag about my position."
"I am Jason, the newly elected Museum president," I say.

June 29th, 2005

I am on the center square of a giant calendar.
...With me is a dark haired woman of a shifting form, who becomes Suzanne...
We each own three cards.
...each card is an aspect of our art. They are similar to Monopoly deed cards...
Suzanne starts to wander around the calendar. She tells me, as she passes by, that we are overextended.
"What," I ask.
As she passes by again she says not to worry.
"I solved it by selling one of the cards," she says.
"Okay," I say hesitantly.
Suzanne passes by and informs me we are now making money. Apparently having only two art aspects allowed us to start to earn money. Soon we have enough money to buy back the aspect card we sold.

June 28th, 2005

...a voice whispers to me. It tells me I am to call my story's world Camaara instead of Zorica...

June 28th, 2005: Dream 1

I am walking along Je-neir's playground at night. I am a giant. Cars drive past wanting to park on the playground, but can't. I am walking toward the Bank One at the end of the playground. Customer and manager complaints drift through the air like smoke. They want the bank investigated, which is why I am there. I enter the bank.
...the bank shifts between the playground and bank interior in the corner of my eyes...
The bank has recently changed their focus to "one customer at a time, one day at a time". The new focus works, but the bank's income has slowed. I enter the Manager's office. The council of women that run BankOne greet me. I ask them to explain the changes made. They tell me that after doing things one way for thirteen years, they wish to try a new way of doing things.
"Time for a change."

June 21st, 2005

I enter the damp cave and emerge in the forest clearing. The smell of pine and dampness enters my nostrils. Brighid is waiting for me.
"Happy solstice," I say.
She smiles back to me.
"Brighid, am I doing things right with my art," I ask.
"Yes. You are travelling the right path."
Then the Wolf walks out of the forest.
"Are you here to guide me or tell me something," I ask.
"No," he says. "Would you like to fly around the stars with me?"
I say yes and climb onto his back. I get a good grip in the fur at the scruff of his neck. I notice how his fur is coarser than a dogs. He starts to run and soon we are flying through the sky. We break through the clouds and climb higher.
"Brother Wolf, what is keeping me from being rich," I ask.
"That is not a wolf's concern," he replies.
We are now traveling through the starry sky. A pelican, grey in color, flies up next to us.
"Brother Pelican, are you here to teach me how to be rich," I ask.
The Pelican nods its head. I say goodbye to the Wolf and climb onto the Pelican's back. I am surprised at how smooth his feathers feel. We change direction and fly to a devastated landscape. The fields are barren and cities in ruins. Fires burn across landscape. We land in a clearing. The Pelican nudges me towards a black stone block. On top I find a hand print made out of jade. I place my right hand on the hand print. Blue light shoots up my arm. Electricity wracks my body. It hurts! I want to let go.
"You must continue," says the Pelican.
I place my left hand on top of the right to hold it in place. My entire body is electrified. My brain starts to twist and pulsate. My thoughts begin to twist and pulsate. Time and space begins to twist and pulsate. Then suddenly it all stops. I shake from the pain. Then I puke up a yellowish green liquid. Black maggots swim in the vomit. I feel a release and can now cry.

June 20th, 2005

I am wandering through the ground floor of Mall X.
...this is all part of a video game...
...the world is divided into three realms in this game.
...the middle realm is the here and now. The present world where we all live...
...behind the first realm is the undead realm. It is like the extra weight on a person. That which is too heavy to let go, even upon death...
...in front of the first realm is the heavenly realm. Here reality is like a faerie kingdom...
...I am two people at once, so my sword will be enhanced...
...My sword is +3 damage versus the undead realm and +24 versus the middle realm...

June 19th, 2005

I sit in my college class with Rosalind. Rosalind looks like Laini from the Gilmore Girls television show. The class breaks for lunch. Rosalind and I stay in the classroom talking.
"I want sex," she says.
"You can always masturbate," I say.
"Not good enough. I want to hear the noises that come from someone's mouth when they make love."
"I'll have sex with you."
She looks me over then agrees.
"I have always had a little crush on you," she says.
We leave class and walk to her house. It is in a gated community in Frankfurt, Illinois. Her father can afford a house in this neighborhood because he is the King of Siam.
"Damn, my parents are home."
No sex for us I think.
...now I find myself standing in my underwear holding four containers of vegetables. Each container held a different type of vegetable...
I mix up the vegetables to occupy my time. Now that I am not going to have sex, I have some free time. I mix up the vegetables and want to set the containers down. I need to slip past two females to do so. One of the females is a tall, lithe, strawberry-blond. The other was a freckly redhead with deep red curly hair. For some reason both are wearing bikinis. They stun me with their beauty. The hallway is too tight. I rub against the two redheads as I pass by. The freckly redhead slyly smiles at me as I rub against her. She starts to talk to me.
"Are those vegetables. I love vegetables, being a vegetarian."
I don't respond, for I am concentrating on not getting an erection. We head out to the back of the house for a barbecue. My vegetables are cooked on the grill. When it came time to eat, I looked for silverware. The only ones I could find were attached to the grill. They were the wrong size, so I ate with my hands. Once finished, we all head inside. I sit with Rosalind across from her parents. I look around the room. I notice a sign reading "NORSCA".
"Rosalind's family must have Norse in it," I think.
I see the time and tell Rosalind we need to leave. The lunch break is almost over. The King of Siam does not want us to leave. He confronts us in the garage. He is carried in on his throne by his royal guard. Reminded me of Polynesian royalty. He commands the royal guard to shut the garage door. It was made up of interlocked clear plastic panels. I want to leave so I decide to leave even if the King of Siam told me no. I punch the garage door opener lose from the ceiling. I then kick and break lose the locks on the sides of the garage door. I lift the door and call for Rosalind to come with. We run. The king sends the royal guard after us.
...I suddenly have a wooden staff in my hand. The tip of the staff glows with white light...
We run into a banquet hall to escape the royal guard. I use my staff to help see in the darkness. We slip out of the banquet hall and enter the merchandise parking lot. I touch my staff to the objects in the parking lot. The objects burst into flame. I even set a miniature temple on fire. Fires burn around us. We run. The parking lot connected to a K-mart. We run in through the backdoors. We run through the K-mart into the Bazaar. It was set up inside the K-mart. The royal guards have found us. They nearly catch us when I set some fires to distract them. I set fire to every temple and synagogue we pass in the Bazaar. The majority of the royal guard are stopped by the fires. A few do manage to catch us. I stab my staff through their chests. I continue on. Any Dick tries to stop me . He wants to show me this pallet. A pallet stacked twice as tall as a man with boxes of cherub dolls.
"They have pubes," he stresses.
I ignore him and keep running. I soon escape the Bazaar with Rosalind. I see my friend, a chubby freckled boy wearing a horizontally striped shirt of red and black.
"Get me across to American soil," I shout.
...the K-mart was built apon the border between America and Siam. The cash registers marked where Siam ended and America began...
"I've killed a man and burned all of Siam's temples. I need to escape."
"I've found a doll with pubes," yells Andy Dick to my friend.

June 8th, 2005

I am in my apartment's bedroom with Suzanne and her twin. I do not remember Suzanne having a twin. The twin is naked, with a lean athletic build. She pulls her long hair back into a ponytail as she goes through my closet. Suzanne has lost weight. She is the short and curvy woman she desires to be. We undress and lay on the bed holding each other. I am so aroused.
...the scene shifts from my apartment's bedroom to a meadow...
I am walking the trails in a meadow near the sea. I am trying to find a back way into Kankakee, for these trails lead anywhere if walked correctly. I pass a treehouse. Rachel, JoAnna, Shante and Lumeki from IOA Program 6 call out to me from the treehouse. They leave it and join me on my journey.
...the trail we are walking slowly turns into Dixie Highway in Momence...
Rachel bumps into me sending me sideways. I bump her back. We continue down the street as I try to wrap up an extension cord. She goes into the Clipper for her haircut appointment.
"About time I also got a haircut," I think.
Randy Whiskers is cutting a young girl's hair. He cuts it like a fox, where the sides are styled into fox ears. Randy tells her she needs to watch the dye on the tips.
"I'm going to lunch," he tells me as he walks past.

June 6th, 2005

I am part of a scavenger hunt in Mall X. The mall contains all my dream locations instead of it's normal shops. Haunted ride, museum, train station, Antique House,...etc. I am teamed up with a college fraternity and sorority. The frat and sorority are brother sister chapters to each other. We are searching all over the mall for the one hundred golden coins. The fist to find them wins. The only problem is the coins appear then disappear. We manage to only find eighty-four of the golden coins. Then the scavenger hunt is over and we have lost.
"Fuck losing," I think.
...I slide my awareness backwards along an unknown direction. I have travelled back in time to the beginning of the scavenger hunt...
We search through Mall X only finding eighty-four golden coins. I enter the Haunted Ride, a carnival haunted house ride that looks like a castle on the outside. Time is almost up when I decide to try something different. I rip open the paper covering over the holes in the bottom of my ride. Inside I find a severed head of a zombie woman. She then shrieks at an inhuman volume. The head floats out of the hole and stairs at all of us. It is still shrieking. My teammates flee.
"I make my own choices not some severed head. I choose not to be afraid," I think.
I rip the paper of the other holes in the ride's floor. Four more zombie heads shriek and float out. One has no lower jaw. Scully and Mulder, from the X-files, are ridding in the car behind mine.
...My awareness leaves my body and moves to Scully's voice...
"The contest has chosen to write clues for the location of the other golden coins in each line of the scavenger hunt. The mother is the water."
...my awareness returns to my body...
The mother is the water. I realize the line is referring to the stream of water running through the ride. It is a deep and dark circle of water. The coins are hidden under the surface of the water. No wonder we could never find them.

June 2nd, 2005: Dream

I am wandering far north of my home. I encounter a smaller version of Mall X. I enter and look around. The mall is nearly all juice stands.
"Odd," I think.
It gets to be near closing time and I decide to leave. But first I want something to eat. Specifically a fruit smoothie made with yogurt. The first stand does not have any. The second juice stand does not have any either.
"Screw it," I think.
I am about to leave when my hunger convinces me to try again. I race to the Jamba Juice located on the half level between the first and second floor. It is located in the center of the mall. As I run to the center, I start to run through water. Once the water is waist deep, it takes on the nature of a golden light. I begin to move with stealth.
...my body changes as I move though the water. I am not alarmed by the change...
I am a monkey-man clad in gold armor. I begin to move with an inhuman agility and fluidity.
I think, "Lets show those college kids real grace."
I dance from brick to brick, column to column, all in slow motion.

June 2nd, 2005: Dream 1

Mike Enzenberger, John Ruane, Jeff Young, Rosalind, Suzanne, and I are traveling in John's car. John is driving. I am riding in the front passenger seat with everyone else in the back seat. My legs bump against something and I investigate. It is a seventeen inch monitor. Before leaving, John tells me it is hooked up to the storage disk in his car's computer. He has placed all his downloads on the disk. I look at the screen and notice it is filled with icons. Each icon was fro a pornographic picture or movie. I really wanted to look at the porn. It was like an burning itch. I had to get rid of this temptation. I eject the disk. It comes out the CD player.
"Uh-oh," I say.
The disk is warped as if overheated. John returns to see the mangled disk in my hand. He is pissed. He yells at me for messing with his stuff. I try to jam the disk back in and finally succeed. To my surprise it still plays fine. John is calmed and drives us to Bradley. We pull up to Micky's Adult Bookstore. We all enter the store. I am confused by the store's new layout. It is almost maze like. Additionally they have changed products. Instead of porn, the shelves are lined with comic books. The coffee bar is gone, along with the stench of cigarettes.

May 31st, 2005

As I wander through the forest I come across a deer and a squid in the clearing. I can see into the deer and squid like an X-ray. I marvel at all the bones in their bodies. Even the squid had bones. His tentacles were made up of vertebrae. Fascinating.
...the scene changes from the forest to a banquet...
I get into an argument with Mrs. Schafer.
"You've lost a day of pay," she says.
"No way. I am allowed five personal days."
"No. You are allowed four. You have used five, so you are one day over."
Seething, I travel to the Manteno Middle School to find a copy of the employee's handbook. I will prove my claim, I think. The building has been remodeled. A descending staircase replaces the entrance hallway. I walk down the stairs and find an old door. I enter the door and talk to the secretaries.
"I need a copy of the Employee's Manual," I say.
"We don't have a manual for high school employees. In fact we have no manuals here. Call Mrs. Hiser and she'll explain the rules to you."
I leave the Middle school and walk over grassy hills. I reach the High School. I head straight to the basement, for this is where the office is located. As I walk through the basement I think that Mrs. Schafer is probably right. Yet I have no intention of stopping my quest.
"I will finish what I started," I think.

May 24th, 2005

I travel up the stairs to the top floor of Mall X. I encounter a large gameboard. It is divided into squares like a checkerboard and fills the hallway. A snake is traveling a path across the gameboard. It comes too close to the edge and almost falls off the top floor. It recovers and avoids falling.

May 20th, 2005

I find myself a contestant on a combination game show and reality show. The show consists of a high school class reunion where everyone wears the world's worst swimsuits. We stand in a swimming pool center ready to dive into the water. The host tells us we will dive into the water, swim to the rack at the bottom of the pool, grab a swimsuit, then put it on. While everyone else is picking a swimsuit, I am in the water holding the rack in place. I get to pick my swimsuit last. Only two are left, both being short jean shorts.
"Fuck," I think, "my penis will stick out."
I start to leave the contest, then change my mind.
"Fuck it. They see my junk, they see my junk."
Having so mush skin exposed, I know I will need sunblock. I leave the pool to find some sunscream lotion. I climb to the top of the nearby hill where the show placed all our stuff. I walk past a metal shack. I my presence startles the scientist inside.
"What are you doing here," he shouts at me.
"I need sunblock," I say.
I then notice the scientist has a black crystal embedded into his palm. Odd, I think. I slide down the hill to get to my stuff. I grab a bottle that was laying out. The scientist has followed me.
"How did you do that," he asks me.
"That is just me. You'll never know what I'll do next."
He walks off disappointed. I look at the sunblock and see it is SPF 8. That will not do. I look around for more sunblock but only find black crystals. Crystals like the one in the scientist's palm.
...I remember every contestant on the show had a crystal in his or her palm...
...I also remember that the scientist was also the producer of the show...
One of the crystals starts to vibrate. I watch trying to figure out what was happening. Then the crystal splits open. A black onyx like beetle crawls out.
"They are eggs," I scream.
...the crystals will hatch and eat the person it is implanted into. They grow when the person uses his or her implanted hand. Soon they will take control...
I look over my shoulder and see the scientist. Shit he knows I know I think. I run. I run across sand dunes eventually entering Chicago. I climb onto the elevated train platform. I encounter John Goodman while waiting for the train.
...John Goodman is my father...
We sit down on the train next to Lou Reed. John tells me his plan for my escape from the scientist. The plan involves going to a hotel in the Jewish part of town. The hotel doors are special in that part of town, for they only open one way. All other hotel doors open doth ways. This will slow down the scientist. The crystal in my palm starts to hurt as he talks. I look and see the scientist is on the train. He sees me. Uh-oh I think. The scientist holds out his palm with the crystal in it. The crystal shimmers and chages, becoming a very long green snake. We run for it. The scientist follows. We run into the hotel and go through the doors.
...my awareness detatches from my character. I see myself run off through the doors. I turn to look around the lobby of the hotel...
A dumpy midddle-aged man is fascinated by a flyer. It is triangular and promotes the hotel he is in. The scientist enters and can not see anyone. Anyone but the man looking at the flyer. The man sees the scientist and cowers in fear. The scientist approaches and raises the snake. It is about to bite the man when Lou Reed appears. Lou Reed prevents the scientist from implanting something in the middle-aged man's crystal. Lou touches the green snake and it glows golden yellow. Like electrical gold. The scientist is rendered powerless.
...Lou reed is an from a race of aliens that watch and supervise the black crystal aliens...
...my awareness shifts and I am watching an episode of Amazing Stories...
The golden snake then goes on to defeat the dog who's voice would end the world, a nuclear missle, and the bunny who shed blood.
"Man, this would make a good idea for a superpowered animal comic book," I think.
Then I remember that Amazing Stories already did an episode about a superpowered dog.

May 19th, 2005: Dream 2

I enter a room in the series of rooms and find Jessica S., from IOA Program 5. She is sitting on the bottom bed of a bunk bed. I notice she is sad, then am shocked to find her naked as I approach. I notice how streamlined and lithe her body is. I also notice how muscular her legs are.
"Like a rabbit," I think.
She reaches out from the bed and caresses my testicles. Somehow I am naked now.
"Love me," she says.
I both enjoy and don't enjoy it. I tell her to stop.
"This is not right," I say. "You may be twenty, but you are still too young."

May 19th, 2005: Dream 1

I am sitting in an art class. The teacher, a blonde woman, walks by. She looks at my art. She loves it. Then she hates it. I am confused by her sudden flip-flop
"You are lazy Jason," she says. "You will only rise so high because you hate to work."
I leave the classroom.
...the scene changes as I step out the doors...
I am standing on a beach on an island in Lake Michigan. The island is home to a hotel and spa retreat combo.
...a zombie plague has broken out. The survivors fled to this island for safety. Once here, they slowly turned on each other. Now the survivors are divided into four groups: Northerners, Southerners, Westerners, and Easterners. Each tribe is fighting to have sole possession of the island...
I stand guard at the door with two others. A man and woman try to enter the hotel. We stop them because they are suspicious looking. They look like neanderthals dressed in stereotypical redneck outfits. Stray hats, overalls, shotguns,...etc. I smash the man's gun barrel into his face. His head splits open like hot pie filling. Brains ooze onto his overalls. I come to my senses and freak out. I run into the bathroom. I lock the door and decide never to leave. Unfortunately, the hotel is then invaded by the zombies. I remain quiet hoping they will not discover me in the bathroom. None ever do.
...the scene changes as I listen at the door...
Through the green van's window I can see the zombies walking everywhere. I watch as all the islanders are captured by the zombies, eaten by the zombies, then rise as zombies. People are being torn apart. Even the trees of the island are being attacked. It is the scariest thing I have ever seen. I am rendered mute from the horror. Soon the island is crawling with hundreds of zombies. The island has been stripped of all life when the zombies begin to mutate. They start to take on the forms of different animals. Yet they still looked like zombies. A hover boat appears at the side of island. The survivors on the boat are waving to me. The zombies are distracted by their mutations, so I run for it. I and another jump into the boat.
...a voice whispers he is the leader that rallies the people against the zombies...
As the boat turns to leave the island, all the zombies emerge from the soil. They scream in anger at their failure to grab us. Then they start to knock the dead trees over onto the boat.
"Faster," I yell to the pilot of the hover boat.

May 10th, 2005

I am watching the Rocketeer movie.
...my awareness enters the movie...
A blond haired young man hands me the jetpack. I strap it on and start to fly. Something goes wrong with the jetpack as I move through the clouds. It explodes. I am flung through the air, crashing into a carnival. I land face first.
"Oww," I think as pain explodes across my body.
I go limp and roll across the ground. I pass out.
...my awareness leaves the character so I can see what happens to him...
My body was broken to pieces when I crashed. The carnival workers find me. They then rebuild me. I lay on a medical bed in the middle of a small circus tent recuperating.
...I can see my character is about to wake up so I reenter him...
I awaken to a kiss from a blonde woman. She works at the carnival and feels terrible about what happened to me. I liked it. But before I could even talk to her, a reporter enters the tent. The reporter looks like one of the actors from the Square One television show, airing when I was in seventh grade. I am pissed he interrupted the blonde woman and me. I lie to all his questions. Justin L., from IOA's Program 1, agrees with every lie I make. The reporter is truly believing everything we say. It becomes a game to the two of us. How far can we take the lies before the reporter catches on. A special event is about to happen at the carnival. We all move to the main tent. The tent did not have bleachers like most carnivals. It had sofa's, recliner chairs, and haybales to sit on. I sit and fell pity for the reporter.
"He's only doing his job. It is not right fro Justin and I to lie to him like that."
I confess to the reporter about the lies. Then I tell him the real story of how I crashed and came to be at the carnival. Then the blonde woman leaves.
...her name is Jennifer I think...
I chase after her. I catch her in the bathroom. It was built where the carnival tent transitions to the brick building. I back her into a corner and kiss her. She kisses me back. As we passionately kiss she fades from view, like the cheshire cat. Only her blonde hair and lips are visible. I know everyone can see us, but I do not care.
"I want to make love to you," I whisper.
"It is not time yet," she replies.

May 8th, 2005

I am working in a Dentist's office in downtown Momence. Monica Miller enters for her appointment. As she sits in the dentist's chair, I am struck by her beauty.
"She would make an awesome painting," I think.
I reach for a nearby placemat, for the Dentist's office was also a restaurant. I sketch the most beautiful drawing ever. When I finish I notice the sketch does not look like Monica. The sketched Monica has a black mark below her lower lip, flaming red hair, abundant freckles, and a larger nose.
"Hmmm, what does this mean," I think.
Then the dental assistant, a brunette woman, tells me Monica would date me. Only she's never talked to me.
...I turn to look at the dental assistant when I notice I am not in the dental office anymore...
I am walking down the gravel road, near my parent's house, that runs past the Haut's. It is a clear sunny day. As I walk the road I think about Suzanne and Monica. I can not decide who I like better. Suzanne is beautiful on the inside, blah on the outside. Monica is beautifull on the outside, but blah on the inside. Two blimps fly across a nearby field. I watch them fly across the sky. The blimps are shaped like round discs on their sides.
"Just like nautilis shells," I think.
Winds begin to blow. One of the blimps crashes to the ground. The other blimp's pilot jumps from the blimp. He changes his mind last minute, but the winds take hold of the blimp. As he falls, I can see him scramble to grab the rope attached to the blimp.

May 6th, 2005

A rocketship sits in the middle of a room in the series of rooms.
...It will launch in November...

May 5th, 2005

I am looking at a calendar on the wall of my apartment's bedroom. I turn the page and the Bear Spirit leaves the calendar and flies into me.

May 4th, 2005

...There was a POWER. One POWER out of many POWERS...
...A piece of the POWER was broken into two...
...One piece became a name on a sheet of paper...
...The name was broken into two words...
...The sheet of paper was in a dark storeroom, lit by a sole candle...
...The other part became a knight in golden plate mail armor...

May 3rd, 2005

A zombie plague has filled Momence. I flee the zombies with my friends: a blonde man, a blonde woman, and a dark haired lanky man. We decide to climb to the fourth floor of the High School. Once we reach the fourth floor, I see it is the High School's roof. Zombies followed us. We are now trapped, because zombies filled the first and second floors. I race down the stairs locking a gate. Now the zombies can not reach the third floor. On my way back to the roof, I pass through the attic. I hear a noise in the corner. I look and watch as zombie children emerge from the darkness. They cry. I am scared but also sympathetic.
'They most likely mean no harm and are lonely," I think.
But I decide not to risk it and attack the zombie children. As I am crushing a child's rotten head under my foot, a giant crow flies in through a broken window. The crow is taller than me. It lands and stares at me.
"Oh-no, the zombie plague has mutated so as to now infect crows," I think.
Yet the crow only watches me. I moves neither closer to nor further from me. It being a zombie doesn't feel right to me.
"It must be here only to watch," I realize
The path to the roof is blocked. My friends and I decide to reach the roof by climbing onto the ledge outside Mrs. Kruse's room.

April 30th, 2005

Inside a temple, I enter a room made from golden bricks. Two torches blaze on each wall. In the center of the room stands a large cube. It looks like a giant-size green children's play block. On top of the cube is a sculpture of an abstract bird. Four columns stand near each corner of the block. I feel a real sense of awe and reverence as I walk through the room.

May 5th, 2005

I am helping young kids escape a school that is on fire. I am trying to keep them calm. Then I spy some other kids using a fire hose. They are trying to hold the flames back till the firemen arrive. I go over to take over the fire hose, so they can escape. The hose is knotted and tangled. I untangle it. I take the fire hose, send away the kids, and begin to spray the fire. I can feel the heat across my face. I manage to put out the flames in the living room. I can not reach the side bedroom with the spray. I look to the front windows trying to figure out another way at the fire. The aquarium, which was the front window, cracks from the heat of the fire. A giant roaring wave flows through the house. I run away. I want to avoid being caught in the wave. The aquarium water put out the fire. I walk through the building to see the level of destruction firsthand. Only the concrete shell of the building remains. I see the principal walking towards me.
"I'm so sorry for your loss," I say.
"What do you mean," he says. "I have not lost so much. I have a lot remaining."
I leave the school and pass by an Italian restaurant in the school's playground. My family is eating in the outdoor cafe. I join them. Then the principal joins us. He's talking about all the ways he can rebuild the school. Lots of giant windows to let the light in he says. An Italian woman with a large sausage draped across her neck approaches the table. I assume she works at the restaurant.
"Vino," she asks.
The principal agrees and takes the wine bottle from the woman. He pours some onto the floor. I am amazed as the tiles on the floor regrow. Soon the floor looks brand new.
...the wine has the ability to regenerate...

September 18th, 2004: Dream 3

In Mordheim, two warbands meet. One is orc, the other human. The humans are dressed in pale silver plate armor. They fight, but a human warrior and an orc fall in love. They decide to marry. The two warbands will not stop fighting. The lovers scream stop at a volume that seems mystical. Everyone stops fighting.

September 18th, 2004: Dream 2

I am watching a movie
...my awareness enters the movie...
I am a silver haired older gentleman. I carry myself with wisdom and resolve in my silver tweed suit. I sit in a labratory of a secret goverment experiment. They have conducted experiments and procedures on me to increase my brainpower. I have developed psychic powers. Silvery ethereal strands grow from my third eye. The strands spread out like tree roots. Where ever I point the silver strands my willpower will be executed.
..."An old man sitting in a labratory is boring," I think...
..."I am going to change it"....
I, as the old man, decide to leave the labratory. I reach into the electronic controls and open the doors. I reach into each staffer I encounter and make myself invisible. After wandering down a few of the concrete hallways I come to another lab. I enter and find silver go-karts. Each is specially designed to operate of psychic energy. I steal a silver go-kart and drive out of the compound. I make it outside and breathe in the fresh air. I turn onto Route 55 and begin to drive away. As I am driving, I notice everyone else on the road is female. Nice. I use my abilities to have three ladies fall in love with me. A brunette, redhead, and dark-haired woman join me on my silver go-kart.
..."Man this is not cool," I think...
I release my hold on the women, then wonder what am I doing. I reestablish my hold. Now I reach through the car and fly. We are shooting through the clouds. Laughing and giggling.
...my awareness leaves the old man and follows behind the go-kart...
The old man did not see the power lines. The silver go-kart crashes. The old man uses his powers to safely land on the ground. The women are not so fortunate. Chunks of flesh and organs rain down on the old man.
..."Nasty! Freaky!"...
The redheaed lands next to the old man. She is nearly intact. He places the silver strands into her and wills her to live. She comes back to life.
...The movie cuts to a new scene...
The old man sits in a leather chair in a book lined study. Heat from the fireplace fills the room. The readhead lays naked on the bearskin rug in front of the fireplace. She, and the old man, are busy reading.
...the readhead is Suzanne after she loses her extra weight...
The old man and the redhead make love.

September 18th, 2004: Dream 1

I am lost in the darkness in the Antique House. I pass through a series of labyrinth like rooms before entering a room filled with televisions. Televisions of all shapes and sizes cover every wall of the room. I wander the room looking at the images on the televisions. I come to one screen which shows a dark sewr. Goblins come crawling out of the darkness. Their lower legs were steam-powered spider legs. They were crawling towards me.
...the goblins could crawl out of the television...
I start to become scared. Then I stop. I start to shout.
"No more! No more looking into my darkness! No more brooding over my evil! I will not dream like this anymore!"
I turn and leave the Antique House. I come to a deck on the edge of a hill. The horizon is red-orange with the approaching dawn. I sit on the deck and watch the most beautifull sunrise of my life. Tears roll down my cheeks. Reds, yellows, orenges, golds, and blues dance across the sky.
...It is time to fly...
...I move my thoughts and awareness to forget gravity...
I start to float. Once I rise higher than the rails of the deck, I leap over the edge. I rise into the air and begin to preform flips. I automatically smile from the freedom and joy I feel. Then a bone comes hurtling through the clouds below me. It hits me in the head.
"Ouch."
I prepare for more bones but none come. It is now night. I begin to drift to the ground. I can not fly anymore. I can still float though.
"If this is all I can do, then I will be happy till I can do more"

February 5th, 2006

I am in my apartment's living room petting a polar bear. I am amazed at how large and powerful it is. It is enjoying the attention. A blonde-brunette woman, wearing glasses, enters the room. She is tall, lean, and muscular. I then notice the large earthenware canister she is holding. It appears to be covered in oil paint and stickers, but I can not tell for sure. I never get a close look. She removes the lid and the polar bear is sucked into the canister.
"What was that," I think.
Then other animals are drawn into the room and sucked into the canister. It was like the canister was a housing for spirits and they were being drawn back to it.

January 30th, 2006

I am on the third floor of a giant cube shaped school. I find myself enrolled in the Second grade math program. I am only in the program as a favor to some teachers. They needed one more student to make the quota for hiring another teacher. The teachers then ask me to help the Second grade math team. It is short one person. I agree, but then feel weird competing against second graders. It's not fair, me being an adult and all. I leave the classroom to find a bathroom. The bathroom is being used by the high school math team. I need to find a bathroom on another floor. I descend to the second floor by sliding down the spiraling stair handrail. The principal and Chad Fross yell at me to stop.
"You'll hurt yourself," they say.
"Phewie," I say, "you guys worry to much."
The second floor has no bathroom, but a nurse's station. I continue to the first floor. The stairs come out right next to the Momence Junior High Gym. Two ancient and powerful looking oak doors lead to the gym. I enter the gym and find a full turkish bath house. Cool.
...as I passed through the oak doors I changed from Jason to a blonde male. He is dressed with real style...
The servant in the bathhouse greats me. He takes my silk vest.
"I have been expecting you master," he says.

January 28th, 2006

I am going to school in a castle made of large stone blocks. As I walk the halls I realize I have been here before. I need to get from the seventh floor, which I am currently on, to a lower floor. I explore as I descend. I encounter the stairs. The stairwell is filled with hot steam-pipes and jagged wire fences. It has a labyrinthian feel. I crawl through the pipes and fences to descend the stairs.
...I realize I am not Jason, but the youngest kid from the Narnia books. Edmund...
I hear voices coming.
"Oh no," I think. "It's the bullies. I need to get out of here."

January 26th, 2006

I am running to Antique House, with a blonde teen female. We are running from the Lizardmen armies.
...My awareness shifts. I am watching the movie about the Lizardmen...
Catherine Zeta Jones runs to the third floor of the Antique House. The Antique House is in a red sandstone desert of the Old West. She is running from the Lizardmen army. Humanoid reptiles ridding dinosaur like beasts. They are advancing from a portal on the river. The portal appears like a giant stone archway over the river. It leads from our dimension to theirs. Cowboys crossed the gate and started to kill the Lizardmen. Now the Lizardmen are waging war on humanity.

January 23rd, 2006: Dream 2

I am to make a box of peppermints by arranging peppermints into a grid. Then the plan is changed. I need to arrange the peppermints into a single file line.

January 23rd, 2006: Dream 1

I am interning at a factory. The factory is unique in that it has elaborate routes made in it from strung together bundles of vines. I am suppose to race a squirrel across the maze of vines. I summon the squirrel by calling to it. As I wait fro it to arrive I check the submissions of the maze I am racing.
...each maze had a mission. Then each mission had many submissions...
I am on submission number four. I need to guide my squirrel onto a large circle suspended from the ceiling. The problem is the ground is covered in rats and squirrels racing to and fro. They will place weights on the my squirrel if it gets near. I guide the squirrel to the extra cable suspending the circle. It is tacked to the wall to get out of the way. He climbs the cord and makes it to the circle. Inside the circle is a room. It is empty except for the sign which reads: "Bear teach me. Wolf teach me.". Then my boss enters, along with the company owner. The owner looks like Kyle Secor. They are upset about the damage and changes made to the room.
"Was it always like this," my boss asks.
"Yes," I reply.

January 21st, 2006

...I am a teenage girl...
...I change into a wizard-knight...
I have a black katanna strapped across my back. I enter the back arena. There is no longer a fence denoting the border of the arena, but now a thick forest.
...the forest can not be directly seen. It is a spiritual forest...
I draw my sword. I mark a line in the sand of the arena, dividing it two halves. Left and right. One half becomes dark as shadow. The other half becomes bright as sunlight. I can make out creatures moving between the two sides. I hear padded feet in the woods. A voice drifts to me from the forest.
"You need to rejoin the two halves," says the voice.

January 5th, 2006

I enter the living room of my apartment. I am surprised to encounter a circle of stones. Each stone was shaped like a one foot column.
...a statue is to be placed on each stone...
...each statue controls a certain animal. It also controls the flow of a certain attribute into the world...
Not all the stones have a statue, so I decide to finnish the arraignment. I place a bear statue on a stone. Then I place an eastern-style dragon on a stone. Now every stone has a statue on it.
...a female voice, which I imagine comes from a blonde woman, says to me...
"You can stop, for you have kept the seasons going."

February 24th, 2006

I am in the back arena of my parent's land. Within the arena is the African steppes. I watch the zebras across the grasslands. Then I spy a man. He bonds with the herd of Zebras. He needs their help and powers to run an empire.
...my views zooms to an ariel view of the arena...
The arena is divided into two. The top third was the area of the Main. The man running the empire lived here. The bottom two-thirds was the area of the Life. Steve, from Program 2, was joined with the Life.

February 20th, 2006

I am working at a store...
...the store changes between a Jewel and Farm and Fleet...
I am looking for answers. I head to the back but stop. A man-eating beast is in the back. It looks like an enormously fat woman eight feet tall with a long hooked nose, bird wings for arms, and jagged pointed teeth. No answers await me here only death. So I head to the front of the store.
...the spirit on the mountain lives in the front of the store...
I could ask her. I will have to climb her eight foot mountain, but I am confident I can do this. I reach the spirit and find Conan the Barbarian has already tamed her. She is now the Oracle. I ask him permission to approach the Oracle. He says yes. I walk up to the Oracle and see she has changed. She appears as an Asian woman with chin length hair whose body fuses with a round sofa seat at the waist. I sit down on the sofa seat.
"How do I fill myself with power and magic," I ask.
"I can answer that question, but then I will answer no more questions for you ever."
Man that is not cool, I think. I will probaly need her advice in the future. I sit and think for a moment.
"Well, how about I lay out my fortune with these Tarot Cards and you help me interpret," I ask.
"That I can do," she says.
I shuffle the deck.
"The first card will represent you," she says
I draw the Rabbit. The picture of the Tarot Card is of Biff. The Rabbit is not part of the Tarot Arcannas. I am scared now I know this is dream taps into something powerful. The cards will tell me spiritual truths and I am afraid of seeing myself as I really am. But I continue.
"The second card represents where you are headed," she says.
I draw the Lord of Suns. A card down in yellow, red and orange with a crowned and beared king holding a flaming sun.
"The third card will represent where you are now in your life."
I draw the Five of Staves. The card had six boxes, with each box having a staff in it. Except the sixth, which was not even there.

February 19th, 2006

I enter my parents barn to find a pink lounger. It was abandoned here a long time ago. I pull it from the dusty cardboard box it is in. As a go to set down the lounger, I see an eggsack attatched to the it.It was the size of basketball and filled with wriggling larvae. Carrie, my corgi, runs up and eats the eggsack. I know they will infest her. I force her jaws apart and make her vomit up the eggsack. Most of the larvae are dead but some still wiggle. I step on one to crush it. Only it doesn't die. I can feel it burrow through my shoe. I try to get away, but it made it into my flesh. I sit and look through the hole in the sole of my shoe. I can see into my foot. The larvea is wrapping itself around one of my heel bones. I need to remove it.

February 17th, 2006

I am playing kickball with my IOA students. I find it unusual that the class is now co-ed. I soon forget this when I realize all the students have superpowers. Daphne Bogenshneider and someone else were playing second base. When the ball is hit by the batter, they activate their power. A bright yellow and blue robot activates behind them to catch the ball. I decide to go to the outfield to have a better view of the game.
...the outfield becomes another room in the series of rooms...

February 10th, 2006

Iron men fly through space. They have recently become augmented.

February 9th, 2006

I, and Suzanne, are on a train traveling across the country. I look out our passenger car's windows at the woods we are passing through. Once out of the woods, we pass through a prairie and marsh along a body of water. I see a giant metal pillar in the distance. I look more closely and see it is a giant crane and part of a bridge, It appears that the the project was quit partway through. A shame. Then another train passes us going the other way. It's siren blares. Suzanne turns to me.
"I hate the whistle on that train," she says. "The whistles used to be steam powered, but now the train plays a recording of a steam whistle."

February 8th, 2006

I am in my apartment's bedroom. It is dark but I see a monster. Humanity has created these furry creatures to serve it. They look a bit like muppets. A furry body, big red nose, and long striped limbs. The creatures could follow a short series of commands. I walk up to one and feel sad it was created to serve. I touch it and it becomes smarter. It can follow even more commands, and more complicated instructions.

February 2nd, 2006

I am the King of the Buffalos in the vast plains within the back arena. The back arena on my parent's land. There also exist a herd of deer. The King of the Deer and the King of the Buffalo were a team leading all creatures.

March 22nd, 2006

I am walking through my parents backyard. I spot a freckle faced brunette young boy walking across the hay fields. He is dressed in an old-style crown beanie, red and yellow striped shirt, and navy blue shorts. He reminds me of a ten year old from the time of the Little Rascals. As he walks across the backyard, Superman's S symbol lands on his chest. He becomes filled with the power of Superman. His body grows to weightlifter size, but he still has his same size head. His personality and the Kryptonian personality struggle against each other. He goes crazy. Superman arrives to stop the Freckled Boy, and they fight. In the ensuing battle, a chunk of wood from the back arena is knocked into the air. It has the letter L branded into it. The wood lands on the Freckled Boy's chest. The L replaces Superman's S. Now the love of Lois Lane flows through him. He calms down and can think clearly. He looks at the mess he has made and feels embaressed.

March 14th, 2006

I am at someone else's house with my family. I am not sure who's house it is or where it is located. I am trying to figure out where the house is located when I meet this tall blonde woman in her twenties. She is stunning! I am speechless at her beauty. She introduces herself and I then remember. I had met her once before when we were kids. She was a bitch back then. Always bossing me around. Now she is very kind and nice. Also very curvy. My family leaves and I have to go with them. I despair for I want to spend more time with the blonde but do not know where she lives.

March 9th, 2006

I go to look at Little'en and Big'en's Myspace page. I find two pages where the one should be.
...the two pages exist on top of each other...
The first was bound by thick black lines. The entire page crackled with more energy than a monitor could ever display. The air around the monitor started to vibrate. The webpage was more real then reality itself. The second webpage was pale and translucent.
...like a fading ghost...
It was bound by the streets of Diversatech campus. I dislike the second website. I was scared I would be stuck only going to the paler website. I try to figure out the address of the first website so I can only go there.

March 1st, 2006

I am walking through my parent's back arena. I find a book about the Alaskan wilderness. I sit down and read the book.
...my awareness enters the story...
As the species dwindle the Controllers keep returning to the brown bear. All the life force of the animals and forest flowed through the bears.
...An image of a brown bear on top of a pyramid of animals and plants appears in my mind. There are red arrows linking the bear and all the other living things...
But the encroachment of humanity and civilization removed too many bears. Then the control of nature, and doorway to the wild's power was moved from the bears to the deer.
...the pyramid changes. Now two deer stand at the top where the bear was...

February 28th, 2006

I am in a store when my friend decides to show me the good Goth clothing store. My friend is a blonde female in her twenties, with glasses, wearing a sweater and skirt. We look around the store. Each aisle is eight feet tall, with a clothing bar running the length. Each article of clothing hung on a coat hanger on the bars. Each aisle was only two feet long. The clothes cost more but are of a higher quality. Not everything is black either. Black and day-glo orange are the main colors. A few aisles over from us I can hear the bored cashier sigh.

May 9th, 2006

I am watching a movie...
...I enter the movie...
Rosario Dawson, my Mother, and myself check into a fancy hotel for a "Magical Sensual Weekend". My character hopes to score a lot of sex. We are met by the guide after checking in. It is Antonio Banderas. He directs the hotels activities. He gives us a list of rooms to choose from.
...Room 104 triggers my intuition...
I choose room 104. Hmm. 1 + 0 + 4 = 5. I would of liked a better number numerological wise, but maybe I am being predjudice towards the number eight. We open the door to the room. It opens to a long hallway. We walk down the hallway and find an Elevator. The elevator leads to the room 104. My mother and Rosario enter the elevator. When I try to enter the elevator, the doors move in such a way to fling me out. Then the entire hallway drops like a falling elevator.
"What is going on, " I think.
No I am downstairs. I find a number pad and enter 104. The hallway takes me to room 004. I try three more time, each time going to room 004.
"Someone is messing with this elevator," I think. "Hah. I have figured out it's pattern, so fuck him ."
I hit the buttons in a way to take me to room 104. I enter the room. It is the largest hotel room I have ever seen. It is larger than most people's house. Wow. I encounter my mother unpacking and I realize something. I am on a "MAgical Sensual Weekend" with my mother. Gross!
...my awareness leaves the movie. My character changes from me to Ben Foster...
Ben leads Rosario to her room. Which is conected to his room. He claims innocence on the arraingement, but she does not believe him. Antonio Banderas enters to room dressed in a white flamenco style leotard.
"What have you done with your MAGICAL MYSTERY WEEKEND," he demands.
We do not know what to say or what he is talking about.
"We will ALL discuss this," he says.
Now the hotel room is filled with desks and students.
...I watch a montage scene of question and answer...
"What was your first sexual experience?"
"When do you feel sexy?"
...the camera then gives a close shot of my mother. She looks just like Helen Mirim. As she smokes her cigarette the camera zooms in to her face...
"Do you know the difficulty with in a large cast," she asks. "It is hard for a large ensemble to give an Oscar noteworthy performance." She finishes her cigarette then looks at all of us. "Get out," she yells.
Two little children, a brother and sister in overalls, run under the pallet Helem Mirim's chair was on.
"Daddy, we can see her panties," they yell.
They yell as their hickish father says, "Get out of there...but first are they purty?"
Everybody leaves.
...most of these people are Antonio's former schoolmates. Man are they a bunch of hillbillies...
...A black teen moves at the back of the crowd. My awareness follows him...
He leaves the hotel room and starts to go a little crazy. He is thrashing about as he yells.
"Things have become divided," he says.
...my awareness moves to another place where two groups are located. They are on a the side of the Mountain...
One group sits in their cave in the mountain. They are dressed like cave-men and stare at a book. All are held in thrall of the Book of Dusks. The other group is out in the sunshine. They are dressed in the most beautiful gossamer gowns and tunics. They sing and dance around the Book of Dawns.
...I return to the black teen in the hallway. His convulsions have died down. I realize he needs both books to lift the curse...

May, 7th, 2006: Dream 2

I lay down in bed with Suzanne. My testicles feel funny so I look at them. Uh-oh. I have three balls in my scrotum. I can not get my testicles to return to normal. I start to panic and head to the bathroom. I do not know what to do. The pain only increases as I move. Once in the bathroom I look again and now my testicles are flowing like melting clay. They flow through my fingers as I try to cup them. The pain increases and increases. Sharp knives are traveling into my brain. My testicles have flowed onto the floor and I have eight balls. Then the skin starts to flow apart. The blood vessels, tubes and other organs in my scrotum begin to leak out. I nearly pass out from the pain. I am so scared I shout for Suzanne to help me. I need to go to the hospital. I drag myself out of the bathroom and then my testicles return to normal. No more pain.

May 7th, 2006: Dream 1

I am reading a story...
...my awareness enters the story and watches it unfold...
A group of people are trying to go back in time. They want to prevent seven heroes from becoming seven villians. They were corrupted by the Western Realms. The group used a boardgame, called the Boardgame, to travel though time. The Boardgame was a multi-dimensional object that intersected many dimensions. In every dimension it intersected, it appeared as a boardgame, but once you entered the Boardgame, you entered it's main body. The main body was wholly in it's own dimension and appeared as a giant game board floating in a vast cosmic sea of stars. The group successfully travelled back in time. They went to save the seven heroes. I was surprised when I saw the seven heroes. They were not superheroes as I expected, but merely good hearted slackers and geeks.

MAy, 5th, 2006

I go to the Barber Shop. I want a haircut and luckily have the ten dollars to pay for it. But then I see the only barber is a crazy and incompetent looking old man. I hesitate then I decide to risk it. As I settle into the barber's chair the old man starts to explain the different haircuts I can get.
"Just shave it all off," I say.
"You serious," he asks.
"Yeah, go for it," I say. " It's only hair."
He then shaves my head. I look in the mirror when he finishes and I am impressed. It looks good. Like Mathew Fox's character from Lost: Dr. Jack. My baldness was gone. My mother and Cheryl Burns tell me it looks good as they pass through the barber shop. I thanked the old man and left.
Looking to buy a flash memory drive I go to the electronics store. The store has the memory chips for the flash drives and the flsh drive housings, but no flash drives. Damn. Then I realize I could get more memory for a cheaper price by buying a memory chip and housing, then assembling them into a flash drive. Nice.

May 4th, 2006

I am traveling down a cobblestone road through a warehouse. The warehouse reminds me of a turn-of-the-century brick dock warehouse. There are many businesses within the warehouse on either side of the road. I am not alone on the road. I am traveling with a large group of people.
...they are fey folk...
We come to a juncture and must choose to travel to the Eastern Path or the Western Path. The majority of the fey folk chose to travel the Western Path. They shrank and changed as they walked the Western Path. The denser and emotions of the Western Path weighed them down. I travelled with the few remaining fey folk down the Eastern Path.

May 11th, 2006

I am in my apartment's bathroom with a black teen male. I am making a circular crown from chopped up squares of newspaper. The teen is upset because his crown was incomplete. It had less paper. The squares floated in a circular shape and vibrated. They were suspended in the air.
...the unfinished crown was made from debt...
...it was built to weaken Superman...
The teen revealed he was the reincarnation of Lex Luthor. He then placed the crown on Superman. Superman became immobolised with worry and anxiety. I used the finished crown to heal Superman. The finished crown was so much more powerfull than the unfinished crown. It glowed golden light...
...the finished crown is the Circular river...

May 10th, 2006

An eggplant the size of a car has grown in my garden. I pick it, slice it, then freeze it. I no longer have to worry about having enough to eat. Now that it is...
...the word MAY appears glowing blue in the air...
I can eat it.

April 30th, 2006

I begin to write a story.
...My awareness moves from me writing the story to the character in the story...
I am a super smart junior high student. My vast intelligence has allowed me to figure out how to move through four dimensions. I decide to move forward in time to see what everyone will be like in high school. I arrive at the future and find all my classmates heading to studyhall. The studyhall is a series of chairs and round tables in my parent's backyard. Stephanie, from the Scholastic Bowl team, is in the studyhall. She calls me Jason Paarlberg. No one recognizes me for who I am.
...Traveling through time has changed how I appear to others...
Being unnoticed, I start to look through my former friends backpacks. I find some math homework. I laugh at the math homework, for what is high school math to someone who has traveled through four dimensions. Then a thought occurs me. What if some of my friends are jocks. They won't recognize me and will beat me up. I run.
...As I run I see Jason running for my awareness moves back to me as the author...
Jason runs and slips his mind along the fourth dimension. He sees in the distance black clouds rolling off a hyper-dimensional juncture. It appears as if fog and clouds were rolling along the walls of the corner of a room. Each side of fog rolls along a straight path from the center. Additionally the entire juncture looked like the negative for a photograph. As if all the colors had been inversed. Jason runs through the fog till an eruption of stars explodes across his vision. Then the whole world flips. The stars are now the lake under the night sky. Jason is bewildered. The Prince of Moonlight approaches Jason with a kind greeting. The Prince of Moonlight appeared like Mozart in a white-whig and powder blue coat.
"Please come to my home," says the Prince of Moonlight. He unfolds his arms to the right and left, but also folds himself along hius middle. He manages to twist himself into an energy the spread out across the lake. The energy continues to fold across many dimensions till taking the form of the Palace of Moonlight. Jason begins to walk to the palace across the lake.
...As he walks across the starry waters of the lake I know Jason will fall. He will disturb the dark substances at the bottom of the lake. For it is negativity and shadows. Thsi will create the conflict for my story...

April 29th, 2006

I am walking through a series of darkened rooms. While with the Acrobatic Twins I find a book and bar stools to sit on. The book was published by Games Workshop for its Lord of the Rings game. It is a sourcebook on the great tree at the heart of Tolkien's stories. The tree was the world tree of Middle-Earth. I discovered Gandalf had a home in the base of the great tree called Rockholme. The house looks like a fantastic mansion made from a series of domes that grew from the tree itself.

April 26th, 2006

I, and the entire Manteno Middle School Scholastic Bowl team, are working at DiNolfro's banquet hall. There was a really late party and DiNolfro's is understaffed this morning. Normally, I would not of helped out because I quit working there last year. But John Ruane is stuck helping, so I work to help him out.
Jason Paarlberg says to me, "Remember that guy who started here when you started here. He is still working here. How sad is that."
I think to myself Jason's right, but I tell him it is rude to say that. I go into the next hall and put a garbage can on a roller base. I then begin to empty the tables of trash.

April 25th, 2006

I am driving my car down the city streets. I look in my rearview mirror and see I still have a gas pump nozzle attatched. I must of drove off before I finished filling up my fuel tank.
"Wait, I never got any gas earlier," I think. I am afraid I will get in trouble when someone sees the gas nozzle in my car. I violently rotate the steering wheel, making a u-turn. Hopefully the force of the turn will pop the gas zozzle out of my fuel tank.
...I drive to the gas station and my car fades away. I am floating forward...
...My awareness shifts elsewhere...
I, and a piece of me appearing as a young african-american male, stand on the World's Backyard. He is doing something with the the symbols and the Circular River. I learn what he is doing, but forget when I awake. He says to me the noise now playing is the noise to listen to. I listen. I hear music playing softly in the wind. I finally realize it is my alarm and wake up.

April 23rd, 2006

I am standing on a balcony overlooking a common area. The common area below me has the feel of a modern college dorm. A party must be occuring because it is packed with people. I observe the people and realize they are all similar looking. It is as if everyone at the party had the same parents. I notice the woman to my right when she speaks to me. She is thin, yet curvy. Her black cocktail dress is a shade darker than her black hair. I can not help but think she wears glasses.
" They are all spirits," she says. "The spirits inside you."
Towards the back of the crowd I see a very obese man. He is the only obese person at the party.
"Why is he different," I ask her. "Do I have a fat man secretly hidden in me?" The thought I may actually be an overweight person scares me.
"No. He is the peice of you that leaves to wander the world when you are young. He eats everything up, then comes back to you when you turn eighteen. He then fills you with what you need to to do your life."
"How does he do that," I ask as I turn to look at her. She is standing next to a blackboard. The blackboard contains a diagram explaining the whole process. I notice other people on the balcony in background.
"So we are not the only ones on the balcony, " I think.

April 22nd, 2006

I am walking through the Bazaar. A tight cobblestone street is filled with vendors. Each vendor hawks his goods from a stall covered in pastel linens. The streets are crowded with customers.
...The Bazaar is another face to the Circular River...
As I walk through the Bazaar, the streets narrow. At the tightest point I realize I need to go to class. I have decided to give Sixth grade another try for some reason. My class room is outside in a tiny garden shed with green metal corrugated siding.
"How can that tiny shed fit all us students inside," I wonder.
I go into the tiny shed. Every desk is touching its neighboring desk. There are no aisles to walk through. My classmates are dressed in school uniforms. The teacher does have some space around her desk. Her raven hair is down up in a bun. She leans against the front of her desk, looking at my classmates. I crawl over the desks to get to mine. I now have a choice of Cheerieos or Applejacks for breakfast. The Applejacks come in a larger box, come in two colors, and taste better than Cheerios. I choose the Applejacks. The teacher is waiting for everyone to quiet down before she beings to teach. I notice she has written something on the chalkboard.

April 21st, 2006

I am walking through a series of lime green rooms with Suzanne.
...The interconnected rooms are another version of the Circular River...
The outside walls of the Circular Rooms are made up of comic book storage boxes stacked on top of each other. The box wall extends as high as I can see.
...We need to pull ideas out...
...Ideas are pulled out of the comic book box wall. By climbing the wall, ideas are released...
...A released idea will float like a baloon...
...Great ideas will float to the top of the comic book wall...
...At the top of the boxes is the Red Curtain. Behind the Red Curtain is a man who plants the ideas in the world's backyard...
...The man is old and young. He is wise like a shaman...
...Good ideas float to the middle of the circle formed by the Circular Rooms or Circular River...
..Bad ideas sink into the floor of the Circular Rooms...
...The floor of the Circular Rooms is bottomless...

April 19th, 2006

I am floating down a river through a green fertile valley.
...The river appears straight but is actually circular...
Five companions float downstream with me. We would choose boxes from under the surface of the river. Each box was linked to a particular color and looked like a boardgame box. The red game, the yellow game, the blue game...etc. Each person would try to pull up one boardgame from the Circular river, but the river always gave two.
...My companions are people and animals. Rabbit, wolf, snake and two other animals...
...Taking a boardgame from the river was part of a larger boardgame...
...Each color is a differnt sense. Yellow is the sense of smell...
The snake retrieves the yellow boardgame plus another. Everyone now has two boardgames except the Rabbit-woman and I. No, not a rabbit-woman, a Rabbit Queen. She is dark haired, shorter than me, curvy, and wearing glasses. I like her. We look to the floor of the dim green room we stand in.
...The floor of the room is the Circular River...

April 18th, 2006: Dream 2

I am in a series of rooms. In the next room forward is a male nerd. He is kinny and scrawny, with greasy black hair falling over his glasses. He tries to channel power from the triple goddess of fertility.
...The triple goddeses are at the end of the series of rooms...
He is not used to this level of power. He freaks out. I know in a short time he will adjust. I leave him and walk forward through the rooms. I come to the room containing the triple goddeses of fertility. They appear like three giant playing cards. The cards float a few feet of the ground. The cards overlap each other, splayed out. Each card looks like a giant Jack of Hearts card with a rabbit as the picture. The oddest thing was the clothing on the rabbits was flat, and looked like the outfit wore by the Jacks. The rabbits looked real. It was as if someone draw clothing onto a window overlooking rabbits in the yard.
...The goddesses are two-dimensional and three-dimensional...

April 18th, 2006: Dream 1

I am working with a team of five other humans.
...They used to be animals but have recently become humans...
There are two females and three males. We are boosting our preformances by tapping into a special signal. We have made many amazing accomplishments. The university needs our help to test the next higher level of the signal. The higher signal took the form of three packages: two large steaks and one calf shoulder-bone. The meats and bones were on foam and wrapped in plastic-wrap like meat from the grocer.
...The voice tells me that dinosaurs required more meat since they had an accelerated metabolism...

April 14th, 2006

I am in the woods with a group of students. The woods are old and vibrant. The students are college-age. Each of us needs to tell the woods what 3-D style to render our animation projects in. The styles were: regular, jumbo, reverse, or Hanah-Barbera.

April 8th, 2006: Dream 2

I turn on the television and watch a Blaxplotation film.
...I enter the movie I am watching...
I am a pimp named Black Chocolate. With the aid of my hoes, I am the world's greatest theif. I have fallen in love with my best ho White Sugar and want to mary her. I'll need to retire from my life of crime and pimping to do mary her. One last great heist is all I need then I can retire. We complete the greatest theft of all time. Then my hoes and I race to the rendevous point in my Grandmother's backyard. Next door is a large grove of old woods. One of my ladies calls it the Alps. The cops show up as we arrive. I can not escape!
...I stop time. I then rewind time so I can redo the greatest crime correctly...
We pull off the caper but we still can not escape the cops. This is my fourth try and I am tired of repeating the same moment in time. I say fuck it! I am not going to try this over, but live with what happens. I grab White Sugar and leap into the creek along the side of my Grandmother's property.
...The creek it expands ito a full river...
The far shore has concrete enbankments. We make it across the river, after almost getting seperated by the river current. We go into the forest and run. We run as fast as we can to outrun the cops. Some cops come down the trail we are running on. The cop cars look like yellow taxi's with cop lights on the roof. We dive behind a tent some hippies set up. I hold White Sugar in my arms as the cop cars drive past. It feels so good and right, time slows down. The cops drive past missing us. I wish we would find shelter soon so I can hold her again.

April 8th, 2006: Dream 1

I enter the Antique House. I try to find a bathroom in the top floor, but he top floor is too small. I feel like I am stuck in a doll house. In my wanderings I stumble into a tiny woman. She is four feet tall, dark haired, and dressed in victorian outfit. I fall in love with her.
...She is cursed...
...I remember a movie about a doomed Victorian love story. A nobleman professor falls in love with a woman, but fails to woo her. She falls in love with the man in charge of the stables. The nobleman enters a jeoulous rage and slays the woman then himself. Now their spirits are bound to the house...
...The woman always falls in love with the male visitors to the Antique House. Then the nobleman professor appears and kills the new lover...
Fuck! I got to get out of here before he sees me. Then I notice a hole in the ceiling. The professor is looking through the hole.
...His eye is like a giants! The attic is the size of a stadium...
He has seen me fall in love with the woman. He begins to slide through the hole when I run for the window. I squeeze out. He grabs at me but misses. I get up. I look around the lawn. It is dark and hard for me to see which way to go. I know I need to move soon. I see the professor squeeze out of the window after me. He lands on the lawn blocking my escape route. He is entirely dark, like a living shadow. He unfolds his legs revealing a third section. He does the same with his arms. He now towers over me. He pulls a cane from the shadowy substance of his body. His face bears no features, except for a white question mark. He begins to shoot energy beams at me from his head. I dance out of the way while trying to make a cane out of computer flash memory cards. If I can build a cane, I can defend myself.

April 7th, 2006

I enter the IOA gym and find it filled with old west ghost towns. The floor of the gym is even sand.
...When I step onto the sand I am transported to where I watch the story of the ghost towns...
A student, a young teen male, uncovers a secret chamber in the ghost towns.
...The secret room was under each ghosttown. Located under where the idea of the ghost town intersects the physical world...
IOA used the secret chambers to solve their overcrowding problems. Then they discovered the dead of each town was stored in these chambers. IOA had to remove all the bodies.

April 6th, 2006

There are two mounds in the IOA gym. One mound is skateboard wheels stacked to the ceiling. The other mound is yo-yo's stacked to the ceiling. The group of people gathered in the gym are arguing over which mound will serve as the basis of leadership from now on. I find the argument silly. I sit on the sidelines and wait. I know things will settle eventually.

April 4th, 2006

I have three jobs. Each job has its own sign with a differnt font and size of letters. The third job's sign is on the back of the door to the office of the IOA gym. Illustrator is written on the sign in a curvy font like from an old early twentieth century circus poster.

April 3rd, 2006: Dream 2

Suzanne and I go to the San Diego Comic-con. We split up apon entering the main hall. It is large, many stories tall and hundreds of feet wide. A lush red and green carpet covers the floor. I head towards the DC hall at the end of the main hall. Then I notice the Independents Hall to my left. I change direction and enter the Independents Hall.
...I am the only conventiongoer in here...
Everyone is setting up their booths. I notice a toy store. It is a booth where the walls are made up of boxes of toys. I enter the booth. There are many goth women in their teens and twenties assembling the booth. They are pushing around little childrens shopping carts filled with toys. They are helped by lumberjack like men in their twenties and thirties. I am getting in the way of the workers. A twentysomething redhead approaches me. She gives me a weird look.
...She knows I am not an exhibitor but a conventiongoer...
"We're not set up yet," she says to me. "It is not your time yet to be here. You need to leave."
I leave and wander the convention hall but have very little to look at since it is being set up. Then I see Christian C., Bryan B., and Kevin C. from program 4. They ask me for the volleyball from the back seat of my car. Heck no am I going to walk all the way out to my car for a volleyball.
...The convention hall has sand dunes inside it...
...I am scared...
I then wake up in bed. I look over and see Suzanne sleeping beside me.
...Our bed is inside my Grandmother's bedroom...
"What are we doing in here," I ask myself when I see black ants crawling on the wall. They are emerging from a hole in the wall by the phonejack. I become enraged and begin to yell how I am tired of this apartment. Its always falling apart, filled with bugs and mold. My dad goes into the basement to try to eliminate the problem.
...The basement is the basement from my parent's house...
I go into my Grandma's kitchen. Verleen and Rosetta from Farm and Fleet are in the kitchen. I am surprised to see them. Verleen makes me an ice cream cone. This is a special recipe she tells me. Place this in the poison and all the ants will be drawn to it. It is how we got rid of the ants in my apartment she explains. I decide to cut it in half to increase the amount of sticky ice cream visible. I take a taste of the ice cream and it is delicious.

April 3rd, 2006: Dream 1

1st Dream
The IOA gym has been redesigned. Now it contains groups of teens that act as memory for a giant computer. They stand in groups of threes. The position they stand in determines the memory storage for reality. A redheaded freckled female is feeling bewildered because she is standing in three groups at the same time.

April 1st, 2006

Suzanne and I are sitting on the futon in our apartment. It is daytime and we are watching television. An ad for a "Letterer Wanted" plays during the commercial break.
I excitedly turn to Suzanne and say, "I can do that."

August 28th, 2004

I am driving down Convent Avenue in Bradley, when I realize I need to make stained-glass windows using my tiki-mask themes.
...the back of my mind is a flight with ideas...
My backseat is filled with the stained-glass windows. I am on my way to show them to Art Contractors and Galleries. A giant blue-jay flies across the street.
...an animal that larger than normal must be a spirit creature...
I accept the blue-jay is a guiding spirit for me at this time. The road has changed and I am in a new area. I am at an ocean.
"Since when was Bradley next to the ocean," I think.
A concrete bridge, many miles long and high, passes over the ocean. I see a light reflecting off the bridge.
...the bridge whispers to me, through the light. "Cross over me. I am the path for you"...
I bet the Contractors and Galleries are on the other side.

August 26th, 2004

I am watching a movie taking place in a future hive city built over labyrinthe underground tunnells.
...my awareness enters the movie....
The city is filled with two types of bio-engineered humans: Thinkers with genetically enhanced intelligence and Helpers with genetically enhanced strength. Thinkers wear white labcoats. Helpers are naked except for yellow construction helmets. There is an accident in one of the towers and a female Thinker falls down the great spiral staircase. The great spiral staircase links the levels of the underground with each other and the surface. She falls to the lowest levels of the underground, home to the Eaters. The Thinkers and Helpers abandonned the underground for fear of the eaters. The Eaters are humans that are bald, caniballistic, and have proboscises intead of tongues. They are the failed mutations resulting from the genetic engineering that created the Thinkers and Helpers.
...my awareness shifts...
I am working the cash register #12 at Farm and Fleet. Dianne, and her son Henry, come in. She goes into a nearby register, run by Lindsey. I go over and say hello. I am so excited to see her. She tells me she is having her tires and battery looked at. She requested they investigate if they caused the damage to her car. I pick up Henry. His body is fine. No signs of cerebral palsey or missing fingers. I am startled. He then begins to speak to me. I start to load a shopping cart with returns. I stack a small pyramid of blue oil cans on the handle of the shopping cart. Henry says, "Let me help." Okay I say. He tries to load a cardboard box that is larger than him and filled with dog food into the cart. The box is coming apart and dog food will fall out if lifted incorrectly. Henry is spilling dog food all over. I let him finish without intervening. I figure him being able to lift a box is more important that keeping dog food off the floor. Then an older bearded man in the next aisle thinks the box of dog food is his. He and his overweight wife bought a lot of dog food. They remind me of Chad Fross' parents. He investigates the box and realizes it is not his. He leaves. I turn to continue to talk to Dianne and she is gone. Weird. I grow tired of my uniform. Fucking uniform. I take it off and my shirt also. I grab a broom from the broom closet and begin to sweep up the spilled dog food. The intercom announces all the managers are dead. They were electocuted on a fishing and golfing trip. What? Sure thay were assholes but they did not deserve to die. This explains why I saw Mike B. and Kent in the store earlier talking to Carl. Carl came in to buy something. I look down at the floor I am sweeping and notice I am sweeping up a lot of hair. Mike B. comes over to help me with the sweeping. I go to return the broom and dustpan to the broom closet...
...the exit doors have been replace with doors to the spiral staircase. my awareness races down the stairs...
I see an armored truck, very boxy in shape, driving down the staircase. It sits on 5 grooves that run along the spiral staircase. A female thinker and three Heads are going to the bottom of the stairwell to retrieve the body of the thinker who fell down to the bottom levels. Heads run everything and dress in a future style purple suit, a purple trenchcoat, and sunglasses. The cheif Head tells the Thinker in the car she will leave the track in a bio-suit and retrieve the body of the fallen thinker.
"No," she says.
"I would reconsider your answer," says the cheif Head. "Or you will be blackballed from the corporations and forced to live in the junkyards outside the city."
She agrees. They ask her to hurry for the Eaters will try to smash the armored vehicle with their proboscises.
...my awareness races up the staircase's seven levels...
A fat woman in a blue mechanics overalls is floating in the air. She yells at a Helper to go down to the bottom and retieve the thinker before the corporation does. He is confused and refuses.
"Why do I need to do that," he asks?
"Go down there and retrieve the corpse cause it will make us rich," she says.
The Helper is still confused. I grow tried of the movie. I grab my shirts, a short sleeve and long sleeve, and go to the back.
"You're so thick and muscular," someone yells as I leave. I turn and see Kelly Varney had said that to me. "I regret not dating you and finding out how thick you truly are." Lindsey blushes and agrees with Kelly. I notice I am very muscular but also have a large bulging penis in my blue jeans. Now I am embarressed. I smile, blush, and head to the back warehouse.